"Gently, By The Masochist" c.
She holds My beating heart
She gives Me the Gas Candle of sparkling Blues
Faces
Drained
(to
I bring This Accusation of Betrayal
Below
We lock gaze../...
30, December 1990/
From `I´m Not Afraid of The Dark # 30 Gently, By The Masochist, copyright , By
_____________________________________________for Mistral
in her iron fist
and She won't let it go./..
She is Pain, in all forms, All Manifestations./..
She skins Me Alive with
a Critical Cruelty
laughing
with no unclear Derision
at My Imperfections/..
Sensual, Beautiful,
Elegant and Silently Empowered/..
She opens Her Dark Horrible Eyes
to fix upon Me a Stare which Shatters the Diamonds of Strung Together
Stars Above,
and disperses their Jewels across
A Darkened, Silent Heaven/..
and Intoxicated in The Coloury bursts of Her
Hypnotic Command
We lock gaze./..
to Shine and Light Her Path
as We retreat together
from The Holocaustal Fires of self destructing Societies
and travel Under The Kindgom/
and as the tiny flaring wick vanishes away
to waxy darkness.
(LET THERE BE LIGHT)
I'm Sent to Heaven
with a Message of Her Blazing Black Kisses
to the Sky
Forever Blue
Forever True
Darkening Eyes on Both Sides,
We lock gaze/..
And I see Heaven,/
And I see Hades all Burning
in the terrors of Her
Pupils and Fire
singes my clothes and hair as
the Passion I feel for Her
Consumes/
Fed
simply by not being fed/..
And Burning all the Whiter
And Brighter
And Purest,
We lock gaze/...
are converging,/
Lips brush lightly,/
Teeth part,
and a violent surge of
Tongues grapple/
There is an intense Flash
of Heat/..
and then my bloodless fingers
grasps at Her Hair
and claw at Her Neck
to separate Her from Mine/..
The Pain She is
now Drives Wild,
Unrestrained
and Unprohibited
throughout My Senses
l
ike The Flood,
like the Scavenging
of some Hungry, Lusting
Fiend/..
Tears come quietly to Me as She
sucks My Life Down Her Throat/..
Slurping away Innocence in a
Rushing Wave of Heated
Sweetened, Liquid Life.../..
Slackened, Weakened and
in Grief
as She lays Me down,
the Drop)
to My Eyes
as She Mercifully Notes/..
Energy fading
I struggle../
She halts Me,
finger to My Lips,
finger to My Tear-Stained Cheeks
and Plants a Kiss
Gently to my Trembling Lips/..
This Sadist of a Lover
has Used Me
to Exhaustion/..
and sends me off
and away
to Sweeter Sensations
of Existence./..
High Places...
Star-filled Spaces..
Her Image Brightens
in Intense
White Light/...
Fades./..
Vanishes./...
I remember Good Things./ Feel Them./ Luxuriate in warmth
and Fleshless Freedom/..Fuse with Joy/Luxuriate in Light/I am./I am../I am.../
I'm Love/Rhythms of Forgotten Melodies
Whirl around Me/I plunge
into a Radiant Sea
of Music/..
Songs/Chords of Sunlight sing to Me./Shine on Me
Shine through Me/Vivify My Flesh-lessness
Amplify Me/
Energize Me/
My Angel
My Angel
My Crimson Essence weeps
from Her cheeks
lips and
mouth./She looks about
Uncertain....../....
Better than Flesh Now
I see My Lover for What She is,
and Giving Voice,
Sensations of the Clear
Seething Happiness of My Being (an Awareness so
Pure and Clean it Far surpasses the Erotic)
I summon Her./..
Deadly Black Eyes
Soften.
Shatter.
She looks up fearfully.../
San Francisco, California
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